A million more tiny pieces

I have never ever fekt the way I do. Such love - such pain
I love JH and I want a relationship with him. He cannot tell me what he wants - he says he loves me.
He speaks about the big problem, he speaks about how there should be no hurt and so on.
He is vague and says sorry.

I have no idea what is happening.

I do not know what to do

I .......?

Bliss