Well it's lunchtime and this is the first time have blogged. What an odd term.
The tutorial last night at Winchester Uni was very helpful. I think the room was more conjusive to a gathering and the layout facilitated chat. Of course we are all a little more familiar with each other although I only know names because Jane mentioned them. Cathy and Pippa. I found Pippa an interestingly odd character. Ooops these are real names. She was quite abrasive I thought at first. There was a sort of cockiness too and yet I saw her vulnerability as well. Cathy seems very nice.
Jane spoke about Frued and it was obvious that she was enthusiastic about his theories. She is a pleasant person in a very direct way. There's no nonsense from her really.
Anyway the session helped immensely. I haven't done a proper essay plan this time and I think that's contributing to how difficult I am finding it.
I started again today as it just wasn't flowig or directed and it is now a bit more. I think there is evaluation going on. Anyway now I am breaking to cook my lunch.
I haven't shared with anyoe how worried I am about the P getting bad references for my sick leave. I am sick with worry ha ha ha. And I was just disappointed when chatting with P, new manager and previous friend. He said he is not sure how long he may stay in the field. He's a money maker and this won't be paying him enough I would have thought. He said dry cleaners look prefereable right now. If that's a joke I don't get it - do you? Who? You?
I am going bell ringing tonight. I am concerned though that I would rather not and instead would stay home continuing to get the essay written. I will have tomorrow afternoon as well. Then Sunday there is the CoDA workgroup with Amy and S... can't remember what I called her in previous blogs. Perhaps I should just use the first letter of their names instead of making names up.
I spoke with J for ages yesterday about how upset I feel and he made reference to bullying which is how I think things are but I know too it's paranoia. I feel less worried about it today.
I will meet P and just see what happens. I am glad that I haven't written everyone off as J would do. I haven't even written my dad off completely but the contact is at a level where it's OK for me and I presume OK for him too. Didn't see him at Christams or his birthday this year. So maybe it will reduce to seeing eaach other once a year. How sad that it's like that.
Well ... that's it for a little while. There's loads to write and no time to get all my thoughts down.
Oh did have a memory triggered by D writig to me by email from Wales. Her son has been given time off to study for his exams. We didn;t get that but I did spend as much time as I could at Farnham swimming baths (ope air and now closed). I had a new boyfriend who I remember as being incredibly good looking. I met him at St Josephs youth centre where HC had met P and R was his friend. So good looking but all I can remember is how clingy he was a nd feeling I couldn't breathe without him cuddling me. And so I finished it with him. Is my memory accurate? It's such a surprise that anyone would fancy me so much.
Bye for now
The tutorial last night at Winchester Uni was very helpful. I think the room was more conjusive to a gathering and the layout facilitated chat. Of course we are all a little more familiar with each other although I only know names because Jane mentioned them. Cathy and Pippa. I found Pippa an interestingly odd character. Ooops these are real names. She was quite abrasive I thought at first. There was a sort of cockiness too and yet I saw her vulnerability as well. Cathy seems very nice.
Jane spoke about Frued and it was obvious that she was enthusiastic about his theories. She is a pleasant person in a very direct way. There's no nonsense from her really.
Anyway the session helped immensely. I haven't done a proper essay plan this time and I think that's contributing to how difficult I am finding it.
I started again today as it just wasn't flowig or directed and it is now a bit more. I think there is evaluation going on. Anyway now I am breaking to cook my lunch.
I haven't shared with anyoe how worried I am about the P getting bad references for my sick leave. I am sick with worry ha ha ha. And I was just disappointed when chatting with P, new manager and previous friend. He said he is not sure how long he may stay in the field. He's a money maker and this won't be paying him enough I would have thought. He said dry cleaners look prefereable right now. If that's a joke I don't get it - do you? Who? You?
I am going bell ringing tonight. I am concerned though that I would rather not and instead would stay home continuing to get the essay written. I will have tomorrow afternoon as well. Then Sunday there is the CoDA workgroup with Amy and S... can't remember what I called her in previous blogs. Perhaps I should just use the first letter of their names instead of making names up.
I spoke with J for ages yesterday about how upset I feel and he made reference to bullying which is how I think things are but I know too it's paranoia. I feel less worried about it today.
I will meet P and just see what happens. I am glad that I haven't written everyone off as J would do. I haven't even written my dad off completely but the contact is at a level where it's OK for me and I presume OK for him too. Didn't see him at Christams or his birthday this year. So maybe it will reduce to seeing eaach other once a year. How sad that it's like that.
Well ... that's it for a little while. There's loads to write and no time to get all my thoughts down.
Oh did have a memory triggered by D writig to me by email from Wales. Her son has been given time off to study for his exams. We didn;t get that but I did spend as much time as I could at Farnham swimming baths (ope air and now closed). I had a new boyfriend who I remember as being incredibly good looking. I met him at St Josephs youth centre where HC had met P and R was his friend. So good looking but all I can remember is how clingy he was a nd feeling I couldn't breathe without him cuddling me. And so I finished it with him. Is my memory accurate? It's such a surprise that anyone would fancy me so much.
Bye for now
