It's damned cold!!!!!
I am feeling upset. JH had invited me to the US with him. Then with all that's going on he has boked his trip but what seems like half heartedly asking me again. It really does seem half hearted as he seems to be telling me I am not going.
This sort of thing then leads me back to wondering what is actually going on?
I said in a text that I was thinking about it and his responses actually talk about him being disappointed that I am not going.
I wonder if JH knows what he wants around this? If he wants to be on his own then surely just tell me.
This then taps into him telling ES he wanted to go on his own. And alal thw while he knew he was planning on meeting up with IL at that particular time. Oh - just shut up Bliss!!!!
I keep remidning myself that I will have to put trust in this relationship again - it's just difficult after so much turmoil over the last months.
I am going to bed.
Tired
Bliss
xx
Nice evening in some ways. Good chat with ML and RB
And about all sorts of things - the power of language - I always surprise myself how much I can tap into information I seem to have learnt
I am feeling upset. JH had invited me to the US with him. Then with all that's going on he has boked his trip but what seems like half heartedly asking me again. It really does seem half hearted as he seems to be telling me I am not going.
This sort of thing then leads me back to wondering what is actually going on?
I said in a text that I was thinking about it and his responses actually talk about him being disappointed that I am not going.
I wonder if JH knows what he wants around this? If he wants to be on his own then surely just tell me.
This then taps into him telling ES he wanted to go on his own. And alal thw while he knew he was planning on meeting up with IL at that particular time. Oh - just shut up Bliss!!!!
I keep remidning myself that I will have to put trust in this relationship again - it's just difficult after so much turmoil over the last months.
I am going to bed.
Tired
Bliss
xx
Nice evening in some ways. Good chat with ML and RB
And about all sorts of things - the power of language - I always surprise myself how much I can tap into information I seem to have learnt
