Dictated by ML
Listen to my friends including ML (when she is NOT "in it") when I am MAD because of a man!
And recognise that I have once again given up myself and in effect turned him into my Higher Power.
I am just as worthy without such nonsense! But check this with people who have healthier relationships too.
he he he he - we laughed. She was saying how angry I got when I was "in it" if she challenged me - like conversations every night all night and being less and less available. Apparently and I acknowledge it I get quite scratchy about the challenge on my behaviour.
A lot to learn .....
I am so so tired.
I noticed yesterday the change when I felt the slight high. I was unaware any underlying emotions. I have felt this many times before. It's like a blanket falls over the emotional centre of me and the lights go out. I started to share but didn't know what I was thinking or feeling so finished my share with at elast knowledge of confusion. This is the sort of high, excitable that I have not been able to pin point enough to explain fully - until last week.
I also emt with my personal tutor. She seemed very encouraging and also had some great ieas to help with learning and study skills. Happiness.
Aftercare - everyone was so welcoming and charming. I felt very warm from the warmth offered. It gave me a real buzz - watch ego!
I am very tired now - only PD and I in the office and it's busy! Surely I shouldn't be returning to this level of workload???? Feel flatter today. Down from high, busy day and not great sleep recently
No contact initiated with JC - feel glad - it's not appropriate.
Talked with ML about how irritated I felt about AV and she reminded me that I have made assumptions. Will ask him about it??
Going to bed
Night
Bliss
xx
Listen to my friends including ML (when she is NOT "in it") when I am MAD because of a man!
And recognise that I have once again given up myself and in effect turned him into my Higher Power.
I am just as worthy without such nonsense! But check this with people who have healthier relationships too.
he he he he - we laughed. She was saying how angry I got when I was "in it" if she challenged me - like conversations every night all night and being less and less available. Apparently and I acknowledge it I get quite scratchy about the challenge on my behaviour.
A lot to learn .....
I am so so tired.
I noticed yesterday the change when I felt the slight high. I was unaware any underlying emotions. I have felt this many times before. It's like a blanket falls over the emotional centre of me and the lights go out. I started to share but didn't know what I was thinking or feeling so finished my share with at elast knowledge of confusion. This is the sort of high, excitable that I have not been able to pin point enough to explain fully - until last week.
I also emt with my personal tutor. She seemed very encouraging and also had some great ieas to help with learning and study skills. Happiness.
Aftercare - everyone was so welcoming and charming. I felt very warm from the warmth offered. It gave me a real buzz - watch ego!
I am very tired now - only PD and I in the office and it's busy! Surely I shouldn't be returning to this level of workload???? Feel flatter today. Down from high, busy day and not great sleep recently
No contact initiated with JC - feel glad - it's not appropriate.
Talked with ML about how irritated I felt about AV and she reminded me that I have made assumptions. Will ask him about it??
Going to bed
Night
Bliss
xx
