Life's so called "tests," Bliss, aren't really tests at all. And to dispel a common misconception, they certainly aren't given by me.
They're just the facts and circumstances one has unintentionally crafted with their focus, that, ever so conveniently reveal powers not yet claimed and understandings not yet grasped.
Amazing how these things work themselves out, huh?
The Universe
Mmm Universe I know - life is life. Nothing is a test or a practice ground. This is the real thing. I don;t believe the Universe or Higher Power puts anyone to test. As the reading says situations, events are the manifestations of earlier situations and events. Today is contributed to by the past and tomorrow is contributed by what we put into today. So in theory if I am aware and make conscious choices towards the healthier options there is a better change that tomorrow will be fulfilling. No guarantess though as there are the unpredicatble others not to mention the unpredictable unconscious as well as the possibility of mistakes.
It is what it is.
:)
We don;t always have to be strong to be strong. Sometimes, our strength is expressed in being vulnerable. Sometimes, we need to fall apart to regroup and stay on track.
We all have days when we cannot push any harder, can not hold back self-doubt, cannot stop focusing on fear, cannot be strong.
There are days when we cannot focus on being responsible. Occasionally, we don;t want to get out of our pyjamas. Sometimes, we cry in front of people. We expose our tiredness, irritability, or anger. Those days are OK. They are just OK.
Part of taking care of ourselves means we give ourselves permission to "fall apart" when we need to. We do not have to be perpetual towers of strength. We are strong. We have proven that. Our strength will continue if we allow ourselves the courage to feel scared, weak, and vulnerable when we need to experience those feelings.
Today, God, help me to know that it is OK to allow myself to be human. Help me not to feel guilty or punish myself when I need to "fall apart".
I am glad to remind myself of this in this reading from The Language of Letting Go. I was beginning to believe once again tat it is not OK to be how I feel and that I am in the wrong for so being. But actually my strength does come from allowing me to be just how I am. I am enough. And when accepting how I feel I am then better placed to reach out and seek support.
Just a quick reference to JH. I had a thought about him having met someone new and not being able to be open about that even though there is nothing between us now than friends. I felt a stabbing in my heart and the longing all over again. This indicates my feelings still, as if I needed to have a reminder. But I am also able to remind myself that just as I said there is nothing more between us than friends or working at being friends. JH may not even want that I suppose. And I guess there is the learning about this for me. And as such what JH is doing is none of my business unless he makes it my business. Furthermore, I will trust unless shown otherwise. JH says he wants to be honest now and also says that this takes practice, that he cannot get this "right" all at once. A friend I suppose stands by with a smile and patience. It is not hurting me whether he his honest or not now. I can let go.
Phew. Relief.
I do wish him all the best with the next two days of what I know for me would be difficult matters of "business" but with emotions attached.
OK going to watch Grasslands - episode 6 of the Human Planet - a remarkable documentary in my humble opinion
Bliss
XX
They're just the facts and circumstances one has unintentionally crafted with their focus, that, ever so conveniently reveal powers not yet claimed and understandings not yet grasped.
Amazing how these things work themselves out, huh?
The Universe
Mmm Universe I know - life is life. Nothing is a test or a practice ground. This is the real thing. I don;t believe the Universe or Higher Power puts anyone to test. As the reading says situations, events are the manifestations of earlier situations and events. Today is contributed to by the past and tomorrow is contributed by what we put into today. So in theory if I am aware and make conscious choices towards the healthier options there is a better change that tomorrow will be fulfilling. No guarantess though as there are the unpredicatble others not to mention the unpredictable unconscious as well as the possibility of mistakes.
It is what it is.
:)
We don;t always have to be strong to be strong. Sometimes, our strength is expressed in being vulnerable. Sometimes, we need to fall apart to regroup and stay on track.
We all have days when we cannot push any harder, can not hold back self-doubt, cannot stop focusing on fear, cannot be strong.
There are days when we cannot focus on being responsible. Occasionally, we don;t want to get out of our pyjamas. Sometimes, we cry in front of people. We expose our tiredness, irritability, or anger. Those days are OK. They are just OK.
Part of taking care of ourselves means we give ourselves permission to "fall apart" when we need to. We do not have to be perpetual towers of strength. We are strong. We have proven that. Our strength will continue if we allow ourselves the courage to feel scared, weak, and vulnerable when we need to experience those feelings.
Today, God, help me to know that it is OK to allow myself to be human. Help me not to feel guilty or punish myself when I need to "fall apart".
I am glad to remind myself of this in this reading from The Language of Letting Go. I was beginning to believe once again tat it is not OK to be how I feel and that I am in the wrong for so being. But actually my strength does come from allowing me to be just how I am. I am enough. And when accepting how I feel I am then better placed to reach out and seek support.
Just a quick reference to JH. I had a thought about him having met someone new and not being able to be open about that even though there is nothing between us now than friends. I felt a stabbing in my heart and the longing all over again. This indicates my feelings still, as if I needed to have a reminder. But I am also able to remind myself that just as I said there is nothing more between us than friends or working at being friends. JH may not even want that I suppose. And I guess there is the learning about this for me. And as such what JH is doing is none of my business unless he makes it my business. Furthermore, I will trust unless shown otherwise. JH says he wants to be honest now and also says that this takes practice, that he cannot get this "right" all at once. A friend I suppose stands by with a smile and patience. It is not hurting me whether he his honest or not now. I can let go.
Phew. Relief.
I do wish him all the best with the next two days of what I know for me would be difficult matters of "business" but with emotions attached.
OK going to watch Grasslands - episode 6 of the Human Planet - a remarkable documentary in my humble opinion
Bliss
XX
