Back to work. Something I've been dreading since leaving work on 10th April to start my holiday. What a lot of energy and mind games as a result of this fear.
I was worried that everyone would have actually been getting on really well which would provide more evidence that I'm THE problem. As it happens, I discovered around the hospital a lot of unrest in connection with LK. Consultant psychiatrists, nurses, ATP colleagues. It seems that the chaos ensues and is spreading outside of the office now. I was gracious. I listened and didn't add fuel to the roaring fire. I could easily have added my tuppence ha'pennies worth. But I withheld.
Only once did I mention something from the procedures from the past. I deferred decisions to her and asked who was required to do what today. She announced this morning that as a result of last weeks supervisions she was going to do the process group every morning with someone. I didn't enquire further but simply agreed. I couldn't see myself how that linked with things that were discussed last week. But I decided not to enter into any issues that would be misconstrued as criticism,
AW kept huffing and puffing all day, relating to the demanding volumes of work. She has only just started working as far as I can see.
Anyway, the day is over. The little gifts I purchased from Spain seemed to go down well. Each of them choosing their little purse with one left for SH. I was going t manipulate their choices somehow but didn't. I feel good about that,
Right now I feel exhausted and need to pop off to bed.
Just a quickie - I lost another 1 lb and 1 or 2 oz. I was disappointed until my sponsor this was just for the week whereas before I've been weighing once a month and more recently every two weeks.
I'm falling asleep - I have to go.
Night night
Pamela
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I was worried that everyone would have actually been getting on really well which would provide more evidence that I'm THE problem. As it happens, I discovered around the hospital a lot of unrest in connection with LK. Consultant psychiatrists, nurses, ATP colleagues. It seems that the chaos ensues and is spreading outside of the office now. I was gracious. I listened and didn't add fuel to the roaring fire. I could easily have added my tuppence ha'pennies worth. But I withheld.
Only once did I mention something from the procedures from the past. I deferred decisions to her and asked who was required to do what today. She announced this morning that as a result of last weeks supervisions she was going to do the process group every morning with someone. I didn't enquire further but simply agreed. I couldn't see myself how that linked with things that were discussed last week. But I decided not to enter into any issues that would be misconstrued as criticism,
AW kept huffing and puffing all day, relating to the demanding volumes of work. She has only just started working as far as I can see.
Anyway, the day is over. The little gifts I purchased from Spain seemed to go down well. Each of them choosing their little purse with one left for SH. I was going t manipulate their choices somehow but didn't. I feel good about that,
Right now I feel exhausted and need to pop off to bed.
Just a quickie - I lost another 1 lb and 1 or 2 oz. I was disappointed until my sponsor this was just for the week whereas before I've been weighing once a month and more recently every two weeks.
I'm falling asleep - I have to go.
Night night
Pamela
XX
