Should I be disappointed? NO! It seems I live in hope at such a deep level I don't even recognise it.
My dad. He had left a message to say he had called a few weeks ago. To begin with I was waiting for him to call me. Nothing. Until this evening. I arrived home probably about 8pm and he had tried calling at 6pm. Grr at me yet again. In my hope I telephoned him in response. It was exactly how it always has been. Because I called hin he was dismissive - as quickly as he could.
I can choose to learn acceptance. I did not change. He did not change.
I am on the brink of going into the normal downward spin. But I would like to deal with this differently.
He and I are incapable it seems of being any different with each other. I am no onger in my past and I am tired of it being the so influential in my today. I think there may be some healing going and some growth
yipppeeeeeeeeeeeee
Maybe
I feel a little low but not desperate
My dad. He had left a message to say he had called a few weeks ago. To begin with I was waiting for him to call me. Nothing. Until this evening. I arrived home probably about 8pm and he had tried calling at 6pm. Grr at me yet again. In my hope I telephoned him in response. It was exactly how it always has been. Because I called hin he was dismissive - as quickly as he could.
I can choose to learn acceptance. I did not change. He did not change.
I am on the brink of going into the normal downward spin. But I would like to deal with this differently.
He and I are incapable it seems of being any different with each other. I am no onger in my past and I am tired of it being the so influential in my today. I think there may be some healing going and some growth
yipppeeeeeeeeeeeee
Maybe
I feel a little low but not desperate
