Sunday 3 May 2009

Music

Writing this as an email to someone I know who and noone else will. Hopefully
Love addiction is absolutely rife right now - grrrrr with me. Know my thinking is skewed

What about .... like any of these?

Talking Heads? Strokes? Stranglers? Sex Pistols? T.REX?

Really not getting any studying done - it's too good listening to music.

Playing a real mix. Gets in my soul. Love the sound of guitar (some) - like great lyrics.

The Church (might be a bit girly for you?) They were a band I organised their travle for when I worked for a specialised travel agent - they were real buggers. Also looked after Dire Straits amongst others. DS were a nice load of guys particularly Mark Knopfler. That seems like another life....!

Sting?
Tom Waits - what an incredible insight he has.
cringe to mention Stevie Nicks - definatley not a boys music taste normally but surely fanciable? Bit poppish as Fleetwood Mac became really.

Steve Harley? Chased all over Victoria in my 20's to try and catch a glimpse of him. Blimey he's rough for wear now. Used to find him so so so sexy.
Along with Paul Weller . Seen him a few times live. Saw in an hotel I was having dinner in - London I somewhere.He was staying there. Fancied him so much.

Steely Dan - mmmm - give or take it really. Bit twee for me really!


Forgot to ask - conservative Conservative or socialist?


I am a Rock - I am an Island - I have no friendship, friendships causes pain .... If I had never loved I never would have cried
... I am shielded in my armour .... I touch noone and noone touches me ... and a rock feels no pain and an island never cries

A most peculiar man - what a sad sad sad song
Simon and Garfunkl

and sound-wise ( not necessarily sentiment in a way ) the extreme of Sex Pistols Anarchy in the UK

Already discussed The Ruts Babylon's Burning - anxiety!
Rory Gallagher - introduced to his guitar playing in my 20's - drnk himself to death poor man. Rock so maybe not your cuppa

Richie Havens - went and met him at Guilfest - Freedom - I want freedom

Randy Newman - an amazing observer - his lyrics really seem to have an insight into people - whereas I think Tom Waits seem to get inside the characters he writes about. Real Emotional Girl makes me cry every time I stop to lsiten properly.

Guilty -
Yes baby I been drinkin'And I shouldn't come by I knowBut I found myself in troubleAnd I had nowhere else to goGot some whisky from the barmanGot some cocaine from a friendI just had to keep on movin'Til I was back in your arms againGuilty baby I'm guiltyAnd I'll be guilty the rest of my lifeHow come I never do what I'm supposed to doHow come nothin' that I try to do ever turns out right?You know you know how it is with me babyYou know, I just can't stand myselfAnd it takes a whole lot of medicineFor me to pretend that I'm somebody else

A bit of Prince? Kiss - not a real big fan but think he has a talent.

Feel So Low - Porcupine Tree - don't like anything else they have done but this one ..... emotive

Paul Simon - Graceland - love the rhythm/african influence = another great poet - the people going to Graceland. Diamonds on the soles of her shoes


Oh and just been rreminded of a film I loved - Belleville Rendezvous - have you seen it? Be careful if anyone is listening as the tune is catchy and don't want to be catched opps caught
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BjjZsp2hDxk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDCOxHz3EVw&NR=1
just a clip of the music in case you haven't seen it or can't remember it

Ordinary Boys - introduced to Seaside - good

Nirvana - brilliant love em - watched the documentary - Nick Broome wasn't it?
He, Kurt Cobain, was so fucked up - he so needed treatment - traumatised and I am so attracted to that tragedy - and the drugs and the lowlife. yum yum
Heart-shaped box, Come as You Are, Lake of Fire, Lithium - the sound really gets into me.
Can't say I am a fan of Nik Kershaw - keep trying but he just doesn't grab me. Off with his head!

Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds - now that grabs me - big time!!!

The Murder Ballads - I wonder where he got his stories from. Who was Mary Bellows and Lottie from Milhaven? They must be based on some truth? And Crow Jane. I like his film The Proposition. Would ike to see it again some time.

I'm going to end this now and do some studying ............. will write more soon
Don't know why I've done this really - really have engaged with the music whilst waiitng for my love addiction to be fed and it hasn't been. I think I have given up now - no no there's a little hope still as soon as I wrote that. Poo poo poo.
It's really altered my mood - DOWN!
Wiaitng waiting waiting and not getting my studying done - shit!

Right reading quietening the music down adn not listening to it ananlysing it no no no more

X

Getting to my soul

Wow - soul feeding todday - playing music. Supposed to be studying but it's getting right inside. The sound of guitar, lyrics, the sound changes, the rhythm. It fires my soul sometimes.
But I am not getting any work done.
This is the problem when I play music I get drawn into it. The TV can be blasting out and I don't even hear it. Just doesn't lift the life it deadens it I think.
Nice evening last nigth but as ususla feel like a dreadful person for things I say and do. Yuch. I realise thought that there are so many elements of insecurity at play. I think A really has a problem with me if some sort and I don't know what it might be. So I wanted to show tat I am a nice person and how close M and I are. Yuch that owenership I show over someone. Poor M I want to apologise to her today.
I am suspicious sometimes of S's motives. I feel mean thinming like that but I seem to sense a vicious streak - I know it comes from a lot of damage but I do't think there's awareness and therefore it can be outwardly damaging to others still.
I wonder what I am doing that I am as yet unaware of that is potentially damaging to others?
Right more studying - sure to write more later