Monday 3 October 2011

Father deep inside

Father, father - always you wrestle inside of me

The irony is that I see how much I am like you in so many ways. I recognise how I found ways to be close to you by cncurring with. I adored that feeling of being accepted by you even though I disagreed. Eventually I agreed because it became the way. I learnt well. But I kept breaking through. Me. ANd that displeased you. All I wanted was to be loved by you but for being me. Being me seemed to breed distaste from you to me.

The only way to be happy is to love
Unless you love
your life will flash by
Wonder
Hope
Follow me

Bliss
XX