This evening I am going to the Buddhist monastry and will meditate. I feel so sleepy I am certain to drowse off into the land of nod. What an adventuring journey that is :)
I met with my psychiatrist. I like him but I think he thinks I am all negative.
And yet actually I feel very positive ..... that was until I got back this evening. I am feeling achy and bloated and sluggish.
This despite a lovely evening meditating. Just all that hormonal stuff is back and it affects me very badly. I feel uncomfortable. Actually I was awake a lot last evening with it all.
However, an evening with A was lovely. a lot of chatting about rags and cloths and chatter. Not really but at the end of the day its the same thing I suppose. We talked about my visit to the psychiatrist and learning mroe and more about bi-polar. We talked about labels and being boxed in contrast with labels as useful tools to open up to more and more. We talked about belief systems, we talked about her relaitonship, we talked about my anger with work and my laughter at myself once I ranted it out.
We ate and we talked. We went to Cittaviveka monastry. A lovely evening meditating. I was a little restless at times but these days I allow myself to be how I am and go with that flow. It soon quietens again. Of course I would love to reach lengthy states of the inner bliss I reach from time to time during any one meditation session. But I allow myself to enjoy those moments as equally as I allow myself to enjoy the way I can observe thoughts and follow them to see where they go. Sometimes I allow them to float off down the river without me.
Tomorrow I am going to the gallery opening night of Camilla's work. How very exciting. Her sister is a esablished artist aready. And the family is INCREDIBLY rich. So of course I think opportunities can be made within those circles.
However it will be interesting and I feel honoured to be invited.
Hieronymous Bosch, a Dutch painter renowned for his use of fantastical imagery to view the subjects of religion and moral issues. I like this one the Garden of earthly delight.
My reason for taking another peak at this was because a friend enquired if he had influenced my recent sketching ....
This beautiful rose has the old fashioned rose scent which seems so rare these days. Absolutely delightful and something I have been able to enjoy on a daily basis. Lucky me!
I met with my psychiatrist. I like him but I think he thinks I am all negative.
And yet actually I feel very positive ..... that was until I got back this evening. I am feeling achy and bloated and sluggish.
This despite a lovely evening meditating. Just all that hormonal stuff is back and it affects me very badly. I feel uncomfortable. Actually I was awake a lot last evening with it all.
However, an evening with A was lovely. a lot of chatting about rags and cloths and chatter. Not really but at the end of the day its the same thing I suppose. We talked about my visit to the psychiatrist and learning mroe and more about bi-polar. We talked about labels and being boxed in contrast with labels as useful tools to open up to more and more. We talked about belief systems, we talked about her relaitonship, we talked about my anger with work and my laughter at myself once I ranted it out.
We ate and we talked. We went to Cittaviveka monastry. A lovely evening meditating. I was a little restless at times but these days I allow myself to be how I am and go with that flow. It soon quietens again. Of course I would love to reach lengthy states of the inner bliss I reach from time to time during any one meditation session. But I allow myself to enjoy those moments as equally as I allow myself to enjoy the way I can observe thoughts and follow them to see where they go. Sometimes I allow them to float off down the river without me.
Tomorrow I am going to the gallery opening night of Camilla's work. How very exciting. Her sister is a esablished artist aready. And the family is INCREDIBLY rich. So of course I think opportunities can be made within those circles.
However it will be interesting and I feel honoured to be invited.
Hieronymous Bosch, a Dutch painter renowned for his use of fantastical imagery to view the subjects of religion and moral issues. I like this one the Garden of earthly delight.
My reason for taking another peak at this was because a friend enquired if he had influenced my recent sketching ....
This beautiful rose has the old fashioned rose scent which seems so rare these days. Absolutely delightful and something I have been able to enjoy on a daily basis. Lucky me!
