Things at work are so quiet and organised and things are getting done within the groups. I feel sad though that it's only a two week reprieve and then L is back. We are finding it difficult to stop moaning and groaning about her.
I wonder why God you are giving me this lesson? To be grateful in the moment? I suppose it's not the worst of challenges a human may have to face and I can be grateful of that. Wow! I am not sure I could cope in the face of some life challenges people have to face and deal with. So what it it I am really struggling with in the greater scheme of things. And yet I can feel so unhappy and a sense of dread.
Just the difficulty of negotiating around another human being that I seem to come into conflict with on many levels.
I do wish to bring to supervision the throwing of the board rubber. Wholly inappropriate and just how unhappy I feel on a daily basis there when L is there. Is that appropriate? Isn't that what supervision is for as well as the clinical element. I would like to talk about the client I am seeing ie K for one and her situation at home being an inconvenience to her.
Feeling bloated in my tummy. I wouldn't think for a minute an extra 2 ounces per day of rice would do anything but I truly do feel bloated and my tummy has become all rounded. Oh and occasionally I have fetl sick, nauseous. And my eyes keep stinging and watering.
I feel full up all of the time with food. It never seems to go away.
I am tired. Late shift finishing around 21:00 yesterday. 2 sessions after work this evening and 1 scheduled for tomorrow after work with a grieving, angry, scared lady who is not aware of the enormity of her feelings. She so needs an inpatient stay.
I missed my meeting this evening because of working late. I had to concede and also to eat my meal.
I feel an empty hole of some sort. Not sure what is missing or happening. Please God help me to stay safe and if I am meant to know please show me what I need to do.
That's it folks!
Bliss
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I wonder why God you are giving me this lesson? To be grateful in the moment? I suppose it's not the worst of challenges a human may have to face and I can be grateful of that. Wow! I am not sure I could cope in the face of some life challenges people have to face and deal with. So what it it I am really struggling with in the greater scheme of things. And yet I can feel so unhappy and a sense of dread.
Just the difficulty of negotiating around another human being that I seem to come into conflict with on many levels.
I do wish to bring to supervision the throwing of the board rubber. Wholly inappropriate and just how unhappy I feel on a daily basis there when L is there. Is that appropriate? Isn't that what supervision is for as well as the clinical element. I would like to talk about the client I am seeing ie K for one and her situation at home being an inconvenience to her.
Feeling bloated in my tummy. I wouldn't think for a minute an extra 2 ounces per day of rice would do anything but I truly do feel bloated and my tummy has become all rounded. Oh and occasionally I have fetl sick, nauseous. And my eyes keep stinging and watering.
I feel full up all of the time with food. It never seems to go away.
I am tired. Late shift finishing around 21:00 yesterday. 2 sessions after work this evening and 1 scheduled for tomorrow after work with a grieving, angry, scared lady who is not aware of the enormity of her feelings. She so needs an inpatient stay.
I missed my meeting this evening because of working late. I had to concede and also to eat my meal.
I feel an empty hole of some sort. Not sure what is missing or happening. Please God help me to stay safe and if I am meant to know please show me what I need to do.
That's it folks!
Bliss
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