Actually, Bliss, if you understood the extraordinary gifts every single challenge in your life makes possible, even inevitable, you'd celebrate your challenges, new and old alike, as the omens that they are of new beginnings, spectacular change, and enhanced superpowers.
Perfect for where you are, huh?
The Universe
Yes perfect for where I am and yet I feel worn down by it all this evening. My self esteem is low and my fear heightened. My fear is of being exposed as incapable and then getting the sack and not being employable. And yet I have evidence that counters this. It's horrid being disliked and discredited by someone whose opinion matters and yet I don't value.
And when asked what it is that is being triggered in me I know without doubt it's the childhood fears of being told I was useless. Not as simply as verbally but through attitude towards me and reactions to me. What matters right now is how I am reacting and sometimes I have felt slightly more empowered. Not when is rage and fighting, oh no then I feel dreadful afterwards. But being assertive and assured without anger or damnation. But today I was scared. Afraid of being judged harshly. In fact I would be judged on poor performance as a result of my fear. The irony huh!!
Please Universe show me how You want me to be. Please help me to maintain my serenity.
Please help me to pray for LK to be happy, healthy and prosperous. Please ensure she has all that I would desire for myself. Thank you Universe. And please help me to mean what I am praying for for her.
Bliss
xx
Perfect for where you are, huh?
The Universe
Yes perfect for where I am and yet I feel worn down by it all this evening. My self esteem is low and my fear heightened. My fear is of being exposed as incapable and then getting the sack and not being employable. And yet I have evidence that counters this. It's horrid being disliked and discredited by someone whose opinion matters and yet I don't value.
And when asked what it is that is being triggered in me I know without doubt it's the childhood fears of being told I was useless. Not as simply as verbally but through attitude towards me and reactions to me. What matters right now is how I am reacting and sometimes I have felt slightly more empowered. Not when is rage and fighting, oh no then I feel dreadful afterwards. But being assertive and assured without anger or damnation. But today I was scared. Afraid of being judged harshly. In fact I would be judged on poor performance as a result of my fear. The irony huh!!
Please Universe show me how You want me to be. Please help me to maintain my serenity.
Please help me to pray for LK to be happy, healthy and prosperous. Please ensure she has all that I would desire for myself. Thank you Universe. And please help me to mean what I am praying for for her.
Bliss
xx
