Dukan so you can too

Well this diet is intriguing. M. Dukan has written and book and a Recipe Book too so of course I am suspicious of the money making machine ... however RF looks very well and it seems do-able. Well so far I am not in the leat bit hungry. Actually the opposite. And in theory there should be a rapid weight loss in the first 4 days. Well we will see. He doesn't alk much about the effects when menopausal. I HATE this change in my hormones, it does all sorts of things I do not plan for and I do not seem to have even the slightest bit of control over it. Grrrrrrr.

I have not got much writtne at all for my essay. However, I have the research together now and I think one last read through some bits this evening might make things just a little bit clearer.
I just don't know how to get started.


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The mystical alchemy of the Blog

Aaaaargh - I am trying to write an essay - it's only 800 words. BUT it is about how the human brain is considered to have a reptilian brain at it's core - the brainstem and we are to write about the accuracy of this thought. I need to describe the parts of the brainstem in humans and the functions and consider the same in the alligator and whether similar functions can be considered. Actually overall, already I would say that this is a valid statement but that the human brainstem has further developed with functions that seem to project to memory and emotional connections with functions whereas the reptiles or alligators are very much more instinctual and emotionless. The functions of the alligator seem much more motor than will, for instance they do not choose their pray, they will attack anything that moves. But similar functions seem to be at a lower level such as the links with the autonomic system ANS - breathing, sleep regulation, blood circulation. And  the link with the parasympathetic system which is involved in regulating homeostasis or returning the body to a resting state which is the opposing action of of the sympathetic system, which stimulates reactions for example the increase in heart rate , and helps respond to sudden emergencies.

So this Blog was always intended as a sort of sinking into thinking space away from the task itself or indeed to just brandish ideas or brainstorm them. And a way of keeping sat at the laptop rather than wandering into the land of distraction. Furthermore keeping away from the destruction of FOOD. Everyone I know talks about the amount of food they partake of when studying. It certainly raises its ugly head when I am confounded and bereft of original thought or quite simply stuck for knowing what to say!!
And today is the first day of being more healthy around food and exercise.
In my sorrow I have turned further towards food as a comforter than ever before. And it is such an uncomfortable result. More self-hatred when I already feel that I am not good enough. I know this not to be true in an intellectual way. But recent events with JH have added fuel to my more emotionally responsive thoughts around this. There is  similarity of wanting to be approved of or valued as there was with my dad. JH said he loved me but his propensity towards untruths give a different message. This is not "blaming". This is perception of behaviours. I think he truly wanted to love me, and truly loves. But he seems not satisfied with just me or even one other. Now that maybe his own insecurities, I will never really know, but how it translates to me is that I am not enough and therefore always disposable when someone else would come along that offers something I am lacking in. And of course I am lacking but I also know I am good enough just as me. Perhaps it merely was that we were too different - but again how that translates to me is that I am worthless. I just want to be loved for being me. I loved myself enough though not to tolerate his indiscretion and dishonesty. What it leaves me with though is missing him so so so much - the things that I loved about him are no longer accessible either. Well for now. Maybe some time in the future we can be friends??


Blah blah blah. No more thinking about this for now. I need to return to my essay.
At least I know the angle I am coming from for that.
Yes there is an accuracy in the human brain having a reptilian core but there are differences in the human brainstem. I need to identify the similarities and evidence the differences.

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It's 13:30 - stopping for a lunch break and some time with RF if she is back fromt he stables. I have 643 words to write about the parts and functions of the human brainstem and the same for the reptile and in those words point out the similarities and differences. Not many words to do that.
Basically, there are similarities in the basic functioning but the reptile has not got the parts that seem to link with the conscious awareness and memory and decision making or emotional parts that would probably contribute to making decisions. So they are far more instinctiaul. They are of course functiojing according to external stimuli - the optic tecta feature in both human and reptile brainstems and in the humans these are also concerned with tactile senses. and as apparently the reptile is sensitive to changes through skin receptors, it is not surprising that this part of the brainstem is common. BUt there is not the equivalent of the inferior colliculum, which is concerned with relaying information to the cortexes where there appears to be links with consciousness and will inform decisions etc.

Blah blah blah - how on earth am i going to write this with evidence. Blimey this is difficult
Frazzeld
Time for a break!

The sound of the waves crashing relentlessly against the rocks

The IOW. Lying in me bed listening to the waves rolling in heavily, breaking on te rocks just beneath the house. I feel the difference in the air. I have been in the freshness all day.
Good friendship, easy and comfortable to just be. Relaxing.
The IOW Grand National - funny.
RF is just such a lovely and great friend. And her little girls are adorable.
I feel a little bit of hope here. A ray of something different and goodness in the air. Loving and lovable. I am OK as me. And there is a way forward.
I feel so very grateful to feel this certainty of love. Nothing more is needed. Certainty of anything else is not required when the love is wholesome.
It's easy going and so am I. I appreciate this time, this sanctuary. This is special to me, always has been and always will be. It feels sad that RF will be leaving this spot but actually the sanctuary is something created between her and I and her family.
They are unconditional with me, well as unconditional as people can be. This is love. I am glad to feel it and be able to allow it and to love them for them in return.
The greatest thinkg in life is to love and be loved in return.

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Elvis gets it

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D3aD5alrJ78

There was a house half way round the world
And I was invited in for a small taste of gin
There was a hall with a thousand birds long
But the biggest one of them all was in a cage too small

I asked the caretaker 'cause he was the Maker
He looked at me and laughed, took another sip from his glass and said
Open up your ears and hearts
You put a big bird in a small cage and he'll sing you a song
That we all love to sing along
To the sound of the bird that mourns

Well we rolled into town into sweet New Orleans
To the Apple Bell bar there was a hole in the wall
The ceilings weren't tall, the floors weren't grand
But the sound they made just warmed your heart

Well it was a quarter to twelve when the boys walked in
They got their black suits on and the songs would begin
You open up your ears and hearts
You put a big bird in a small cage and he'll sing you a song
That we all love to sing along
To the sound of the bird that mourns
You put a big bird in a small cage and he'll sing you a song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hC7JUzrcw4E&feature=related




Can't you see
I love you
Please don't break my heart in two
That's not hard to do
'Cause I don't have a wooden heart
And if you say goodbye
Then I know that I would cry
Maybe I would die
'Cause I don't have a wooden heart
There's no strings upon this love of mine
It was always you from the start
Treat me nice
Treat me good
Treat me like you really should
'Cause I'm not made of wood
And I don't have a wooden heart

Muss i denn, muss i denn
Zum Stadtele hinaus
Stadtele hinaus
Und du, mein schat, bleibst hier?

There's no strings upon this love of mine
It was always you from the start
Sei mir gut
Sei mir gut
Sei mir wie du wirklich sollst
Wie du wirklich sollst
'Cause I don't have a wooden heart

The Marvellous Matter of Discovery

Born Edward James Muggeridge, April 9, 1830(1830-04-09), Kingston upon Thames, England, Died May 8, 1904 (aged 74), Kingston upon Thames, Resting place Woking, Occupation Photographer
Muybridge's The Horse in Motion
A set of Muybridge's photos in motion. Eadweard J. Muybridge (April 9, 1830 - May 8, 1904) was an English photographer, known primarily for his early use of multiple cameras to capture motion, and his zoopraxiscope, a device for projecting motion pictures that pre-dated the celluloid film strip that is still used today.

In 1874, while living in the San Francisco Bay Area, Muybridge discovered that his wife had a lover, a Major Harry Larkyns. On October 17, 1874, he sought out Larkyns; said, "Good evening, Major, my name is Muybridge and here is the answer to the letter you sent my wife"; he then killed the Major with a gunshot.
Muybridge believed Larkyns to be his son’s true father, although, as an adult, he bore a remarkable resemblance to Muybridge. He was put on trial for murder, but was acquitted as a "justifiable homicide." The inquiry interrupted his horse photography experiment, but not his relationship with Stanford, who paid for his criminal defense.
An interesting aspect of Muybridge’s defense was a plea of insanity due to a head injury Muybridge sustained following his stagecoach accident. Friends testified that the accident dramatically changed Muybridge’s personality from genial and pleasant to unstable and erratic. Although the jury dismissed the insanity plea, it is not unlikely that Muybridge did experience emotional changes due to brain damage in the frontal cortex, often associated with traumatic head injuries

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Who's been to Uni today?

The spirit of bear and deer

http://animalspiritdance.info/

What? Not the centre of everyone's Universe!!!!!!!!

This is the true joy in life - being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; being thoroughly worn out before you are thrown on the scrap heap; being a force of nature instead of a feverish selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy. ~George Bernard Shaw