Mab Jones

Welsh Wool
Oh the fellas they like a girl with long hair
They love to run the hands through it
But their tastes change when it comes to down there
That hair's not nice when they chew on it

Some girls are fuzzy, some girls are furry
Some girls are like a rainforest
Some hair is straight but mostly its curly
And Welsh girls have got a lot of it

Maybe its coz, just like the sheep
We need our wool to keep warm in
Maybe its coz with our valleys so deep
We need bush in case the rain's pouring

I don't know why, we've just got a lot
Welsh girls look bad in a thing
Unless they take off the hair that they've got
It really depends where they're from

I mean, valleys girls just love their curls
Their hair grows wild and flaxen
But city girls don't hide their pearls
They prefers' a waxin'

In Swansea they shave it.
In Tenby they save it
In Cardiff they take it all off
In Merthyr they shape it,
In Rhondda they drape it
Down either side of their crotch

In Rhyl they prefer a tiny moustache
In Aber a beard's the in thing
In Cwmer they pluck it but are prone to a rash
In Newport they add lots of bling

In mystical Pembroke the shape every folicle
Into a glyph that is highly symbolical
In Milford Haven the girls prefer shavin'
They leave just a few hairs there gently wavin'

Up in Caernarfon any male visitor
Will find the girls smooth and a hairy perimeter
In Flint it's the fashion to blow-dry it straight
In Gwent they tie beads in to make it ornate

There is a style to suit every passion
From silk smooth to long pony tail
Just near in mind that whatever the fashion
You're welcome, and will come, in Wales.
(Mab Jones)



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A good evening - nice company
ML and her friend N
CS and her friend C

Some great poetry but a number of writers and some that I didn't really get.
Glad I made the effort. ML reckons she will read some of her own next time.

And so to bed .... working tomorrow PD will have his operation tomorrow.
Universe take care of him.

and please send a kiss to JH so that he can feel me

Bliss
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A love poem on a poetry evening

The Moment Before

I want to touch
the sharp taste
of the moment in between
the second just before
the place where the breath catches
in anticipation.
It's the scent of heat held in the air
Between two mouths
reaching for each other, hungry.
The shine of moisture on slightly parted lips
just before
it melts into
the wetness of the other.


It is the skin that tingles
waiting
fine hairs at attention
reaching
aching.

It is the places that have not yet been touched
but know they will be.

It is the smooth, quivering paleness
of the inner thigh
as the outer is stroked and kneaded.
The muscles of the abdomen tightening
the back arching slightly
begging
come here
quickly
slowly.

There, in that moment
do not take your eyes from mine.
I am here
awake
I am reaching
to be met.

Do not touch me and keep your soul
out of your fingertips.
Die into me
or do not come into me at all.
Ever after is in this moment
happily or not.

Sacrifice the daydream.
Dare to hold the desire
for a great love.
Be with me.

JH sent me this poem once.
I love it. I sense it. I know it I have glowed in those moments just before, giving in, giving all of me.
 
What I say in return is ........................ 
 
The moment just after
 
to die into that very moment
whatever the future might hold.
Happily or not ever after
And whilst I know to trust that the future
is not actually in my own hands or anyone else's,
there is surely more for the future,
some sort of commitment
more than just this moment.
Something to work with 
build upon.
Not just one single moment
of anticipation,
solitary fulfillment
and move on.
Can it not be about more moments
more just befores
making each one as unique as the last.
Complacency kills so quickly
familiarity.
Could we creativily be momentary?
Adventure, excitement,
together
in love
Love me.
 
Bliss
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I don't know where JH found the poem. It is sexy and sensual and creates in me that very feeling it describes.
I long for that moment just before. Can we hold on to it?
I do not have it to give to anyone else.
 
Bliss
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Feeling nervy .. and a little bit brainy .... not to mention hormonal

So the sensory detector detects the outside world. An electric pulse or action potential is triggered travelling through the axon and releasing chemicals a the synapse at the end of each dendrite which in turn generates an action potential at the next axon button. The direction is afferent as the signals are being sent to the CNS.
This is the job of the sensory neurons. And all the axons lying along side together are collectively known as the nerve.
I think this is how it works - anybody???????????????

I didn't really learn the detail of this ever before and yet it is familiar nonetheless. I feel stupid not knowing this. Doesn't everyone know this?

Yes apparently I have it right - there are only two linked neurons to the brain - well only two that are linked but goodness knows how many sets of these two there are - oh poop another question - how many are there?

Gosh it's suddenly really overwhelming suddenly realising how many neurons and cells and synapses and ......................................... it's a true miracle that we function at all. And how does it all get decided what shape things will be - like the brain being a sort of cauliflower shape and then there are parts f us that look like intricate leaves or delicate tiny flowers. I am sure the biologists would be horrified to read my descriptions. The cauliflower brain and the flowery bit that i think is in the cerebellum area of the brain. Lots to learn ??? :)

Bloody Hell neurons can range from 1mm to 4ft

So much potential for mis-wirings and mis-firings. We are miracles - delicate and intricate materials - The Universe spent a lot of energy putting us together - and developing all the time - evolution!

 The brain is made of two halves and held together by merely a few fibres - well and the skull of course. The fibres actually are the means of communication between the two halves.
Absolutely amazing!!!
I sort of knew these kind of details but also have not paid too much attention. It's things that I suspect others probably have really absorbed and are just aware of mildly within their background knowledge.









Endocrine system - made up of the hormones of the body.
Sheer brialliance!!


Since the last few years "suffereing" (and it really is at times a suffereing) the effects of hormonal changes in my body I have been absoultley amazed at the power of hormones. And of course when they are not "flowing" with ease for wnat of a better turn of phrase (not a good biologist as you will be reading) the impact on so many things - mental, physical, emotional and probably spiritual.

Absolutement incroyable!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ongelofiljk!
he he - how the hell do you pronounce that then?

I had a dream ....... and crazy techno talking

...... about .... oh no its fading fast.
It was something about separating from emotions and functioning on intellect. It all made perfect sense in my dream.
A woman, I don;t recognise her now, was behaving in a way that I could clearly see she wasn't experiencing through emotion. She was saying the right things but I could see she wasn't feeling it. And so I was able to explain it to her and she got it.
I can't remember the detail but at the time I was dreaing it I can remember thinking I must keep this idea as it will explain everything clearly in the Real World. Hmph. It was probably another of those genius ideas in a dream and the reality is nonsense. Anyway I knew I should have written it as soon as I woke up. It was so vivd at that very moment I told myself I would not forget it and immediately started getting on with day to day living. And how fast it's faded.

This is gross advoidance of studying. My eyes are not so fit. And oddly I was reading about muscle deterioartion in the eyes with age. Arrrrggggh! I do not age well. This reconciliation of age and change - I am a long way from acceptance right now.

ML and I had an amusing interaction via FB this morning. Just made me chuckle reading the posts - very silly.
Bliss: Your postings don;t show up on my FB pages? Have you blocked me?
ML: Not intentionally ?? U may have blocked me
Bliss: No I haven't blocked you. It hurts :)
ML: will try another and let me know
Bliss: Nothing yet
ML: and now?
Bliss: nope
Bliss: our funny conversation above - made me chuckle
 
ML: Bliss - can you see this?
Bliss: Can only see by going on your page
ML: weird
Bliss: yup - you blocked me !! :((
ML: ooops.... think i may have blocked lots
Bliss: Oh!
Bliss: Ouch! WIll you unblock me please
Bliss: How did you do it anyway
ML: If you have not seen latest _ I have no idea and it is something you must have done ? U r the secret suirrel after all :-)
Bliss: Ha ha but I have lots of others appearing on my thing - and you said you may have blocked lots. DO you know how?
ML: No idea at all - bar blocking totally. And that is obvious in settings. Di u see my last wall post? And Annie not been on since beginning of Nov so I cannot be sure. Put a normal post on your page and will let u knw if I see it?

Bliss: This is a hello to ML who seems to have blocked me from her FB page and I am crying
ML: likes this..
Bliss: You see it then! So how come I don't see yours? You HATE me - boo hoo
ML: Likes this..
Bliss: Really?
Bliss: giving up - it makes no sense to me - need an expert on FB to fathom this one. Back to studying for me
 


Bliss: Oddly I don't see AMs either unless I go to her pages???/ Have I done something with the settings or something?
ML: I have just been changing mine to overcome your mistake - just typical. Mind u i don't see Annie's either... ???
Bliss: mmmm so maybe it's not me at all
Bliss: I have checked the settings and friends only can see everything
Bliss: do you see my thigns appear on your thing
 
Bliss: Hello AM - I seem not see any of your posts on FB - same with ML so have decided you both secretly hate me - I am paranoid aren't I?
ML: That is a lie - I have done nothing. It must be u? I have evn just had a response from NG and she ia rarely on FB - well not wiv me anyway - ehmm. A bit of a theme going on here ;-0
Bliss: So you can see AM's post?
ML: well yours I think - as I saw that message from you to her
Bliss: oh!
AM: I think the simple explanation would be that I very very very rarely post! xxx
Bliss: ah ha - like simple solutions thanks xxxx
 
Crazy world of techno talks
hahahahahahahahahaha - nuts all of us
Bliss
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Monday Night Liss

What a lovely meeting. And I realise it's less about the meeting and more about me and my attitude and input.
I haven't attended to my recovery so much in the probably the last 6 months. And now I am refreshing my effort. It's paying off.
JH asked me a little while ago what it is that makes it a good meeting.
Well this evening I shared - I related to a couple of things already said by others and to some things said by the guest chair. I have known her vaguely throughout my recovery and she is a very upbeat and pleasant lady.
There was laughter in the room and I listened to the essence of the person and not the detail of the personality.
There was longevity and nostalgia with that.
There was niceness = just decent people reaching out to each other. Of course there are personalities with all the defects of humanness. But I can focus on the principles and see people just trying to become better people one way or another.
A lady said good bye to me as I left the meeting room this evening. She used my name which was a lovely thing to happen. Made me feel heard. It mattered because I think I am invisible really and actually keep myself that way by trying to shrink into the woodwork.
So tonight I was pro-active.
I had the extraordinary events of Saturday to share which I believe are directly linked to these 10 years I have committed myself to changing. Sometimes working at it flipping hard and at other times flipping out all together.
And it's not been alone. I have had a lot of wonderful friends carrying me at times.

I have faith. I forget sometimes but I do have a very strong faith.
People are unpredictable and unreliable and of course that keeps everything always interesting. But I have faith .............................

Bliss
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Jesus and the woman of Samaria

Jesus does something that is very dramatic here. When Jesus is discussed in this chapter as having spoken to a Samaritan woman; it’s a shocking concept. In fact in the synoptic gospels, Jesus does something quite surprising. He made the Samaritan the hero of one of His parables- the Good Samaritan. You’ve got to understand how radical this is. It’s like making an Arab the hero to the Jew or the Jew the hero to the Arab in a parable. That would be the same kind of enmity they had.
Even speaking to the woman, He overcomes a number of barriers, as we’re about to see.
In John 4:2, where Jesus wasn’t baptizing but His disciples were, it corrects an inaccuracy in the information that had apparently reached the Pharisees. Here’s what is happening- tremendous hostility as a consequence of Jesus’ growing reputation. Surely when John the Baptist was brought into captivity and then finally executed and Jesus was really getting their attention, He knew then that He also had to keep Himself away. All four gospels express Jesus’ concern to avoid arrest at the hands of the Pharisees before the appointed time. So that’s why it says in John 4:3-4, “He left Judea and went away into Galilee, and He had to pass through Samaria.” I think He went there because it was the shortest route and also there are appointments that take place.
God has divine appointments. He didn’t necessarily leave Judea with any fixed intention of ministering in Samaria, He just planned to pass through but the Spirit will always blow wherever He wishes. True messengers of God are never subject to fixed programs and to prejudices. We need to keep that in mind for ourselves. You don’t know what you’re called to do. You don’t know what ministry you’re going to have and very often your greatest moment might be something that was not planned- something may appear to be an interruption or something that might not seem very productive.

This has been brought to my attention once again. I recall being confused on the first occasion it was brought to my attention.

My heckles go up when I read about the Jews being the chosen ones -  that's how interpret it and have to look deeper into the meaning and the impact on me - somethign for strong contemplation. It's not that I am prejudiced towards a race of people but I read an implication of a "special" race.The special and different attitude.If I am not careful I will be accused of being anti-Semitic and that is far from what I am saying. What I am trying to say is that God is surely not biased or offer preferential anything to anyone person or thing. That perhaps the lessons are spreading slowly slowly around humanity shows that contentment and learning is available to everyone whenever they are ready. And perhaps there were people in Israel who were ready before others but this doesn't mean they are the first and only. And to me the fact that different belief systems were developing over the Earth shows that others were also ready much earlier in our evolutionary development but just in different ways. And that's why I am not considered a Christian I suppose - because I don;t believe in the ONE way or ONE lesson. All the stories from all beliefs systems can resonate clearly with me in different ways. Fundamentally I believe and this is personal that all the belief systems are advocating the same thing - Godliness as a way of being.

I believe that I am working and walking int he direction of Godliness.

So that is one part of the interpretation I have.

Then there is more ... how when the woman realises that she is in the presence of a prophet how she becomes open and interested and is very giving and sharing of her precious water. The very fact that Jesus made her an important person in his travels shows that he was unbiased. No one better or worse than any other. Equality, acceptance, tolerance of others with different struggles.

I also like the reference to never really knowing what any journey will bring and being open to shifts and changes. Going with the flow and something will always occur as a result.

I was very sorry to not be travelling with JH. With really strong longing about it. But since the day I was supposed to leave so many other things have been able to happen. I need to trust that having made a decision for one reason and then questioning the decision on the basis of being confused about how I have been once again very affectionate with JH, well it's all a little muddled really.

And then I read into things once again. I must remember that JH himself agreed that he is not available to be able to fully love me. By that I don;t mean he doesn't love me. He is a very loving person and loves humanity I believe. But he is not available to place his love within a relationship right now to his fullest.

This is an example of him and I travelling on one path so we thought and then things happen to change the trajectory. It is different but no less meaningful.

Not sure where all that came from. And I am sure to forget the essence that I have taken that has brought me acceptance and calm but for this moment it means a lot.

Thank you Universe for bringing this to me again.

The angels work well in bringing signs - I sometimes forget to notice them and even when I notice them I forget to make time to look into them and see what it is I need to learn.

Bliss

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Living the dream

Ha ha, last night I dreamt about blood. Or rather in the early hours of this morning. It's very vague but I was bleeding and it wouldn't stop. This monring I had blood tests. Not only that, after she removed the syringe, the little hole wouldn't stop bleeding. Of course ventually it did but after several plasters and her having to press on the wound and hold my arm up.
Furthermore I was talking about bleeding with my dad.
So if this is living the dream by golly I am ..... :)))
Or is the dream living me?

I am going to start reading the first of my set books. A cup of coffee and then start. I am just disorganised. And the more chaotic my flat is the more I just want to ignore it all.
I think tomorrow I will spend time dedicating to getting organised. So even though it is highly likely I will be at work on Wednesday, at least I am making he space for studying.
It is an odd process I am going through. It started all last year.
It is sheer laziness. But I also know that laziness covers up a lot of fear.
Nah I am really lazy!!!!!!!
Oh and I feel generally run down right now. I really am not enjoying the way my health takes my energy. I hope this passes soon.

So a couple of hourse reading and note taking. Then I will be off for a walk with Abigail. It is absolutely puring with rain and the roads around here are turning into rivers. All the water off the hilly fields crsses the roads on its way down into the valley. The water is either very red or very yellow. I wonder what minerals can be found in the earth around here. It's pretty as the coloured water finds its path down the roads. It's fipping dangerous though.
We dont have extremes of course like the disasters recently in Brisbane, Brazil and Sri Lanka to mention a few. But compared to other areas in SE England we do get some extremier conditions than some.
The joys of village living.

I am still wanting to isolate and so being stuck in this village it would be easy to simply disappear. However I have arranged for a walk with AB this afternoon and then after supper with her, GB and RB, Rb and I will go to a meeting.

Bliss
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